I don’t deserve to live. I have a blade and I am thinking of pulling with it I also have ha gun I wanna kill myself but irony won’t to….
It takes a lot of courage to reach out and share how you are feeling – you should be proud of yourself. It sounds like you are in a dark place and that must be really hard.
Feeling like you don’t deserve to live is very serious. Please call our 24/7 Lifeline at 866-488-7386. Please also consider reaching out and being open, about your suicidal thoughts, with someone you trust, preferably an adult such as a family member, counselor, neighbor, teacher, or anyone else you think could help.
If you’re looking to talk to other young people about your feelings or others going through similar issues, you can check out TrevorSpace, our social network for LGBTQ youth and allies. It can be a great way to make friends and find support from all around the world. The address for TrevorSpace is http://www.trevorspace.org . TrevorSpace also has a discussion forum called Q&Q (Queer and Questioning) where you can post questions and discuss what you’re going through with thousands of other LGBTQ young people on http://www.trevorspace.org/topics.cfm?src=1 .
If you need immediate support, please call 911 or visit a hospital to get help from a mental health professional. Please continue to reach out for support. Although you may feel like it sometimes, remember, you are not alone.