Hey, my name is Ashlee. Lately my life is falling apart, Im lesbian I have a great girlfriend I have good friends but it doesn’t matter I guess. Im still sad al the time I recently started cutting again which I had stopped a lil while back. I don’t no what to do ive been having suicidal thoughts lately and im just getting tired of being “here”. I get bullied everyday and I don’t n what to do I no I ned help but I don’t know how t get it. I feel like if I don’t get help soon it maybe to late. my family is in the middle of some court stuff and I cant deal with it at all. I need help how do I get it?
It is brave of you to reach out and share your story – you should be proud of yourself. Having good support from friends and family can be very helpful, but sometimes we need additional support. Getting bullied can be hard to cope with and no one should have to deal with that. All of this can be overwhelming when your family is going through a tough time like court stuff.
You mentioned that you feel suicidal. With all that you are going through right now it would be helpful to talk to someone. Please consider calling our 24/7 Lifeline at 866-488-7386. Please also consider telling someone you trust about your suicidal thoughts, preferably an adult, such as a family member, counselor, neighbor, teacher, or anyone else you think could help.
Cutting can be one way to deal with these overwhelming emotions, but it is important to think about some of the consequences. It can lead to infections, accidents, and permanent scarring. Checking these sites out can be helpful: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/self_injury.htm and http://www.selfinjury.com/.
If you’re looking to talk to other young people going through similar issues as you are, you can check out TrevorSpace, our social network for LGBTQ youth and allies. It can be a great way to make friends and find support from all around the world. The address for TrevorSpace is http://www.trevorspace.org . TrevorSpace also has a discussion forum called Q&Q (Queer and Questioning) where you can post questions and discuss what you’re going through with thousands of other LGBTQ young people on http://www.trevorspace.org/topics.cfm?src=1 .
It can be very challenging to reach out and put your feelings on the line. Even though it might feel uncomfortable at first, please give our 24-hour Lifeline a call at 866-488-7386. Our trained counselors are really great at making you feel comfortable and helping out with the situation. If you need immediate support, please call 911 or visit a hospital to get help from a mental health professional. We all need help sometimes and remember you are not alone. Please continue to be brave and reach out for more help.