I’m eagerly awaiting the day that I can transition from female to male. Lately, I’ve started to feel like this day will never come at all. I’m terribly underfunded, so I’m not even able to think about getting the hormones and surgeries I desperately need. A lack of money is all that’s holding me back. I hate living in this body and I’d transition tonight if I could.
I’m driving myself crazy trying to come up with a way to solve this, even shed some tears. I try to stay hopeful but sometimes it’s just too hard. What can I do?
Hi. It sounds very difficult for you that you are currently unable to obtain the medical services for your transition. By reaching out to us at Ask Trevor, it shows that you have not given up trying and that your are putting effort into finding resources. I want to commend you for that.
I can’t tell from your letter what you have tried so far, but there are a couple of community centers in western Michigan that might be able to direct you to locally available resources. One is the Lesbian and Gay Community Network of Grand Rapids (www.grlgbt.org), another is the Kalamazoo Gay Lesbian Resource Center (www.kglrc.org). These organizations might have connections to medical and other resources you can look into.
You didn’t say whether or not you have any friends, relatives or others who provide a support network for you while you deal with both the challenges of feeling like you are not living in the right body for you and the frustration of not being able to change that in your present circumstances. I hope that you do have this type of network or that you can find support through the organizations I provided.
Although it might feel like it, you are not alone. Even if there is no easy solution to the financial obstacles you face, there are organizations to support you emotionally as you deal with that challenge. I hope you are successful in achieving the future you envision for yourself.