will i always beloved

Question:

I am just a piece of trash never ever finding a place to live in peace. I’m just like that piece of trash that never had any friends. I don’t deserve to live. I am just like a useless piece of trash to all the world. I will never be loved. It is funny how people say o Brandon you have so much to live for and it gets better but you know what now that I look back at those days I have nothing to live for it will never get better will it I mean I think the kids that bully me tell me to go hang myself for a reason why also would they say that they must see I don’t care but I do listen and I do care. I mean when I came out at 10 that’s when they would pick on me. I will never be loved for who I am will I.
Love
Brandon

Answer:

Hi Brandon,

You should continue to be proud of yourself for reaching out for more support. Feeling like trash, that you will never find a place to live in peace, and that you do not deserve to live are all really dark. It must be tough to cope with these feelings. And it certainly doesn’t help when others bully you and tell you horrible things. No one deserves to be bullied like that and you should get an adult involved. Please tell them what is happening.

Everyone deserves to live, even though you might not feel like that all the time. Please call our 24/7 Lifeline at 866-488-7386. Please also consider reaching out and being open, about your suicidal thoughts, with someone you trust, preferably an adult such as a family member, counselor, neighbor, teacher, or anyone else you think could help.

If you need immediate support, please call 911 or visit a hospital to get help from a mental health professional. Sometimes feeling loved for who you are starts with yourself. Love yourself for who you are because you are special just the way you are. We love you the way you are here at Trevor. Even though you might feel alone sometimes – you are not.

Trevor