I am writing to you again, for the second time. Well, I tried to follow all the advice that you gave me ... but things have been getting worse. I controlled myself, and I stopped cutting, but thoughts like "kill yourself immediately" continue bombarding in my head. Every day I have to hear my mom complain about her life, saying: "I hope God take me soon," "I'll die and you'll turn away alone." I can not stand it anymore. I read some things about depression and psychological problems on a site that you prescribed me ... and I feel all things related to depression. I'm young, very young. I'm afraid to just be young with depression ... this is not a normal thing.
We are glad you chose to contact us again. This is a difficult situation. Trying to understand the separation of your parents, while living in an emotionally charged environment can be very difficult. In your prior letter, you mentioned some relatives who were tying to assist you. I imagine it is difficult to trust anyone with the conflicts that have arisen between your parents. If you cannot trust your Mom and Dad who can you trust? Perhaps, you are thinking along those lines. But, right now, you are struggling with cutting, depressin and thoughts of suicide. You have trusted us with your situation. Can you make a leap of faith and trust one of your relatives?
Finding additional resources will help.
The Instituto WCF-Brazil believes that the protection of the rights of children and adolescents is key to building a sustainable future. Focusing on the issue of sexual violence, supports and develops programs that: Train professionals have an important role in the development and protection of children and adolescents; Mobilize the society for a growing number of people and managers of various sectors to come together for the protection of children and adolescents; Strengthen the self esteem of young people at risk.
Perhaps, this organization can help you. Give it a shot. You are worth it. Do not hesitate to enlist help via local hotlines.
CVV Sao Paulo - National Association Rua Herculano de Freitas
273 - Cerqueira César
CERQUEIRA CESAR CEP 01308-020 Sao Paulo - SP
Hotline: 55 11 31514109
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Giovanna, this is a very difficult time. Your life is being severely effected by your parents impending separation. But, this is not your fault. You are not to blame. You must be overwhelmed by the changes. That is OK. You have bravely reached for assistance. Continue reaching out. You do not have to cope with this alone. If you feel your immediate safety is at risk, staying with one of your relatives may help to calm that fear and anxiety. Your safety and well being are important. Stay strong. There are solutions. Perhaps, seeking the help of other people will help you find them.